What do you imagine your soul looks like? Does it glow with wisdom and peace, or is it grasping and yearning for something to complete it?
I don’t think the waiting is about impatience. Rather, I think it speaks to the hell we put ourselves through fantasizing about how much better things will be when we finally attain something. Something outside of ourselves.
I think it speaks to the ways we put our lives on hold, the ways we withhold, the ways we refrain from showing up. We treat our lives as a dress rehearsal, like no one’s really watching and this version doesn’t count. We wait for our circumstances to become perfect.
Waiting until we’re the perfect size. Waiting until our boss starts appreciating us. Waiting until we win the lottery. Waiting until our partner behaves more romantically. We’re always waiting, waiting, waiting.
What if you made the commitment to start showing up regardless?
What if you brought your A-game to everything, absolutely everything?
In The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, he cites the fourth agreement as, “Always do your best.” That best is dependent, though, on where you are at that particular moment. It’s about 100%, not 50% and not 110%.
That’s an interesting distinction because your best when you haven’t slept well the night before is going to be very different from having had a weekend full of relaxation. Your best when you’re triggered by your annoying coworker is going to be very different from your best when you’re with your favorite friend. It’s also about not burning yourself out trying to please others. It’s about being true to what you have to give in every moment.
If you have a sense that there’s some rust on your soul from holding yourself back, try a small step that feels aligned. Imagine yourself 5 years in your ideal future. Think of the you that you can’t wait to be, the one who shows up fully, your inner queen. What does she have to say about it? What step can you take to move in that direction? What feels authentic and natural?
Those small steps start to add up and before you know it, you’re forging the path that’s right for you. It starts to feel effortless because your vision is magnetic. You’re pulled toward it with ease and grace. Then, things aren’t so much of a struggle because you’re not making yourself do anything. Your choices become aligned with your soul’s journey. And, the more you do it, the easier it gets. Your soul gets brighter.
Shine on,
Jenn.